Uneasiness

Felt kind of uneasy as I am starting my job tonight. Yes, its night shift, which is something similar to guard duty less the ammunitions. Being assigned to the Emergency Department aka A&E, I am worried I may not deliver it correctly. What if there's emergency cases? what if I cannot react to the situation? What if I've done something wrong? Dun worry, I'll tell myself, "I can do it" 100 times - That's exegerating. Well, I need to rest and prepare for the night. Everything would be fine.

A new start

Hi all, after a long time, I've decide to start writing something.

Currently, I am going to sign the letter of appointment with my agent. Though the assignment I am taking is not the best offer, it's a place i wish to try out -- a hospital. This is shift work, may be I am trying to test my mother's reaction when she knows I am doing a shift job. An important trial for my future job. Cos she hopes I'll return to work for C*F, some job she thinks its good. However, I cant live in her ideals. Most prob, I love freedom, don't like the feeling of being tied down. Could it be selfishness? some may interpret it that way.

There's something I've learnt from my "arch enemy" buddy, Mr Lau. Both of us have different ideals, viewpoint and plans, and we wish to stick to our plan. We learn to compromise to each other when there's a common goal to complete a task. Through this, I realise that not everybody is suitable for a certain method of learning or accept an absolute answer. That'a makes up the differences between human beings.

oh, I sounded too chim for the first entery? Anyway, thanks to you if you are reading.